Reaction

I felt a little bitter about myself and my writing this past week and now that I am (sort of) out of the funk, I wanted to say a bit about what happened. 


To recap, in chronological order:

  1. 2/9 – Wrote 3 poems after being inspired by Wednesday Poetry Prompt 122
  2. 2/15 – Finished editing and printing two whole days before the meeting (before the actual day, a first since I’ve attended the group).
  3. 2/17 – Wrote a quick blog entry (that I forgot to post) and headed to the meeting. My turn came. I read and my group critiqued and I reacted…badly.
Their reaction was mostly “I don’t get it” sprinkled in with a word confusion issue but my reaction was very unwholesome and defensive. I came out swinging, with my eyes and inflection at least. I was shocked and felt a strong need to explain. I went home feeling unhappy with myself.

Ok, I understand that I was heavy handed in passing out three poems (everyone usually does just one piece). The first one had a confusing homonym, the second was a palindrome – a new form to us, and the third was “Tomorrow“. I knew I was overreacting because I had spent so much time on them and I felt they didn’t get as much butchering as they deserved (and probably not where they deserved it).

Nonetheless, the experience was sobering. I didn’t want to write anything and I was consumed with school work so I excused myself from writing for a week. Within that time, I found out that I actually love writing. I am willing to put myself in that situation again and face worse critique, or *gasp* get a rejection letter because I love this stuff. Or I’m just a masochist.
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2 thoughts on “Reaction

  1. My 2nd round in trying to post this!
    A question––who or what is “they” in #2 last sentence?
    I am a member of your “group,”and a Pavlov offspring of anything you bring to our writing table. That is to say my gray matter is always stimulated by your stanzas, phrases, motifs, metaphors, etc. So it took me by surprise (but maybe not, as I am also a vulnerable word artist) that your experience at our table was sobering. I am grateful, however, that in the process you recognized you “love writing.” Hear! Hear! and I look forward to future writings. Hugs, Donna

  2. Hey Donna,

    By: “I knew I was overreacting because I had spent so much time on them and I felt they didn't get as much butchering as they deserved (and probably not where they deserved it)” I meant the poems themselves.

    Thanks for the encouraging comment. I believe every experience gives us the opportunity to grow as writers but more so, in character as well. I'm looking forward to the next meeting!

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